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Tuesday, 01 July 2008

  • Yesterday is a kid in the corner.
    Yesterday is dead and over.

    What does tomorrow hold for me?
    I had such promise, dreams...
    When did I lose integrity?
    I was taught that that breaks seams.
    I mean ya know
    It holds it all together
    Keeps up the show
    or fluctuates with whether
    or not you want to get ahead.

    //

Friday, 20 June 2008

  • Why do they always call it that?

    When you deviate from the beginning page of a website, generally the one that you first go to when logged in, why is it always home?
    Your stuff is there but the rest of the stuff you do is elsewhere on the site. Everytime you want to clear a page or get to a quick link for something you can usually go to home online.
    Not everyone would call the place they started from home. For some its hell. The place i started from some could say. A cold, unwelcoming air comes from some homes.
    Not everyone has a home in "real life". Everyone does online. No wonder the Web is so popular. The kids finnaly feel like its some home that is theirs.

    //

Friday, 21 March 2008

  • I'd rather love a rock. (totally random dumb thought)

    Albeit rocks are cold, hard, and not really loveable, I'd rather love one. Why, you may ask. My question is why would you question that? Here is my logic.

     

    1. Rocks cannot hurt you unless you drop them or throw them on or at yourself; you would need another person in the relationship for them to throw stones. Therefore, dating a rock removes the chance of your lover stoning you. (Rocks dont throw themselves).

    2. You would always win arguments. If nothing else, you could throw your partner into the wall and it cannot report abuse. It will, however break into many pieces.

    3. The rock gets softer with time. It never has wrinkles and doent even have skin, so no dust.

    4. There is not any cost attached to keeping a rock. Maybe ones for your medical bills after the shattered remains fly at you, but nothing a few surgeons cant handle.

    5. It is very light and travel friendly (depending on the stone). And it can always be the next fashion statement.

     

    Thats all i can think of. I hope you enjoy it. Any other suggestions, just comment. I'll respond.

Saturday, 16 February 2008

  • Recovery

    If only i could organize my thoughts and bring up all my reasons and just put it all out there.... love hurts so bad, and then trying to leave it just makes you see how much you do and how much you cant let it just go. Even when you have to. I want someone to love me for me, but they dont seem intent on finding her. Or maybe thats just my misconception?

    Am I worthless or is that just how I see me? And im not being all oh no one loves me, but i think my actions tell others that I am... and im afraid i view myself this way. It is most detrimental to my future... Am I worthless because I act it or because I dont make others know what really hurts me? Am I worthless outside of the truth? Or do I just hate me?

    Syk... my fears.... (love me anyway)

    Ever since that fight

    nothing's been alright

    When you left

    I sat bereft

    I was hurt and couldnt let you back

    Now I think i wish for what I lack

    For what she has

     

    So many times love has made me a fool

    Satan has used it so unnoticed as a tool

    makes me fall and cry

    till Im left wondering why

    God is not enough

    why im not so tough

    and here i write so only you know the truth

     

    I lie so i am all i need

    and lies i can so easily feed

    to everyone so they cant see

    the real me

    im afraid of how ill feel

    afriad that hate is real

    im so scared that i cant love you because i do not love myself

Sunday, 28 October 2007

  • hmmm

    I brace myself, see what ive done....

     

    wow the new LP album is really that. New. Not like their old stuff but not so different that it can be called a complete change. Im kinda into it, but mad that they may have sold out. Sell-outs sicken me. I want the real thing.

     

    Boyfriend thief

    be what you want

    I cant stop you

    I showed how i felt

    look where that got you

    but i care so much that i question

    judgement and all my revenge

    I think that maybe im just wishing that youre saddened by where i am not.

    but the worst isnt what you do,

    its how i hold myself

    secrets stay in but i wonder

    am i just like you if i dont let them out?

    im chasing the wrong thing on a pain-filled requisition.

    but minor flaw in the plan

    after my heart falls-

    whats left of me?

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